Blog Tour and My Review: Out of Focus by L. B. Simmons

Blog Tour and My Review:  Out of Focus by L. B. SimmonsOut of Focus by L. B. Simmons
Series: Under the Influence
Genres: New Adult, Romance
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Synopsis

Synopsis

“Shhhh, Cassandra, it’s our little secret.”
Secrets are stubborn things when they refuse to remain hidden. They tear through your soul, clawing and lashing until the pain becomes so unbearable, you’re left no choice but to silently scream your agony. No one hears you, of course. You smile on the outside and drift through life as though your mind is at peace, but all the while, you remain your own tortured prisoner. Sealed inside the darkened, soundproof room of your conscience, deafening cries echo as you plead for someone to unlock the door and release you from your nightmares. And eventually, when no one comes, you find ways to cope. To dull the suffering the only way you know how.
But what happens when you’ve become so numb, when everything around you has become so blurred, that you begin to lose focus on the saving grace standing directly in front of you? When you’ve anesthetized yourself to the point of losing consciousness, forced to watch as his once solid image fades away, lost to your reach in the haze as it smothers you?
What do you do then?
You fight. You heal. Then you bring him back.
Well, my name is Cassie Cooper, and it’s time.
No more secrets.
This is my story.

***WARNING - The subject matter of this novel centers around the psychological effects due to sexual abuse experienced during childhood. For this reason, as well as sexual situations, language, and adult themes, suggested reading age is 17+.***

I received this book for free from Author in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

My Review

Out of Focus by Author L. B. Simmons is book two in the Chosen Paths series. It is a cathartic story of being cleansed from the past, embracing the future, and finding one’s Epilogue. It can be read as a standalone. However, if you read this book first, you will be moved to discover the beauty of Under the Influence.

“I was broken a long time ago, and when I was put together again, I was forever changed.”

I grew to love Cassie Cooper in Under the Influence. She was the supportive friend who offered hugs, words of wisdom, a place of safety, and, if need be, would knife someone for those she loved. She was well-rounded, witty, loving, strong, and loyal.

“I’ve done my part. I’ve kept the secrets thrust upon me with dedicated believability. My portrayal of who I am has become a blurred, hazy version of the once very distinct Cassie Cooper.”

Out of Focus was a poignant story that opened the book of Cass’s life and gave definition to the girl who became lost in the woman. I really thought I knew Cass. But, I discovered that she was the enigma of her own making, a complete mystery that I had to crack.

“I bet if my center and his center got together, we’d definitely have plenty of natural energy. For days.”

The first moment Cass saw Grady, I felt her overwhelming desire and fascination. It was a surreal expression of lust and wanton need; I had to know this man! He was gently inquisitive of Cassie, making her world tilt on its axis because of the kindness and intuitive nature of his touch and visceral gaze. Everything about Grady Bennett screamed for Cass to run, she just wasn’t quite sure in which direction to go, toward him or as fast as she could in the opposite direction. But, he became the catalyst for discovery of her past and the renaissance of her future.

“Love isn’t an obligation. In fact, it’s when you find it so willingly offered in the most unexpected places that you should hold on to it and never let go, because that love is real, unconditional.”

There are some things in life that are heavenly to me. The words penned by Author L. B. Simmons quickly became one of these ethereal experiences. They unraveled me, one thought and emotion at a time, turning my complete focus and intent to this macrocosm she created. The characters were absolute perfection in the making. Regardless of their age, they spoke to me, gaining and demanding my undivided attention, to which I happily acquiesced. There was a steady rhythm to the story which made me want to savor every word on every page, knowing that a book like this is a rare and precious find. I was in awe, laughed, cried, sighed, dropped my jaw in amazement, and celebrated it as a beautiful melody that lingered in air. Out of Focus was the perfect escape, captivating my mind from the prologue and lovingly holding it through The End.

“Sometimes even the smallest bit of light can lead you through the darkness.  All you need is a spark.”

Excerpt

“You’ve been watching my apartment?”

Grady’s mouth quirks and when my eyes fall directly to his perfect lips, the heat from before resurges between us. I swallow deeply as he slowly inches forward, the warmth of his body searing my skin as he hovers near me. Then those lips pass my own to land on the shell of my ear before he whispers, “My men watch your apartment.”

He chuckles and his heated breaths fan my ear, sending a wave of goosebumps rising along my skin. “For the first time in my career, I was forced to take myself off surveillance. Because while my main objective was to keep an eye on your surroundings, all I could focus on was beautiful, irresistible you. I couldn’t tear my eyes away from you, and because of that, my involvement was compromised.”

By this point, I’m no longer breathing, so as soon as he retracts his presence and is once again relaxing in his chair, a whoosh of air enters my lungs. After drawing a long breath in and releasing it, I do the only thing I can do.

I blink.

Grady chuckles.

I blink again.

Then I clear my throat and break my one-question rule, again. “Exactly how long have you been watching me?”

Grady leans forward, pressing his forearms on his thighs and lacing his hands so they dangle between his knees. Then he opens his mouth and completely blows my mind.

“I’ve been watching you long enough to know something broke you. Something you keep hidden, something that weighs on your soul. You pretend, but your eyes betray you. There’s pain hidden within them, but when you smile, really smile, the pain is gone and you’re you. Not the person you pretend to be. And like I said earlier, I find that very interesting. I want to know what makes you smile, how to make you smile, and how to keep that smile a permanent fixture on that gorgeous face of yours. And more importantly, I want to know why you feel unworthy of that smile, and how to fix that too.”

He gives me a crooked grin and shakes his head. “I guess what I’m saying, is I would very much like the chance to get to know you, if you’ll let me.”

I blink, then swallow. Because once again, there is nothing I can say that could ever match that.

He laughs silently, gorgeous smile on full display, then extends his hand. “Do you trust me?”

Trust. It’s another one of those small words that carries such profound meaning.

I trusted once.

And it was that trust that broke me.

I dared to trust a second time.

And the evil hands of Silas Kincaid slaughtered that.

I don’t know if I have it in me to trust a third time. I really don’t. Not with someone who makes me laugh, or someone who makes me feel things completely unprecedented. Someone who without a doubt carries the power to completely shatter me.

Right on cue, voices slither through my mind, screaming their protest. Their warnings.

Only Spencer deserves light and sunshine.

 

Not you, Cassandra. Never for you.

 

You will always be alone.

 

All alone.

 

As you deserve.

 

I look away to the empty chairs across the table.

The voices rejoice in their victory while the obvious fact in front of me slices another gash in my chest.

I’m all alone.

Grady’s voice is barely heard about their yelling. But soon, the soothing tenor enters my mind and stifles their screams. “Don’t get lost in that head of yours. I’m right here. Focus on me.”

I tear my gaze away from the chairs to find myself immersed in a beautiful sapphire stare, so earnest and sincere as his outreached hand remains, waiting for me to find the courage to take hold. My chin trembles and moisture coats my eyes. I swallow and allow his stare to fortify me as I attempt to will the voices away.

I’m so tired of pretending.

And maybe it’s the prolonged exhaustion, but as I root myself into those damn eyes, I find myself succumbing to their comfort.

I know I cannot fully grant his request.

Or can I?

As I search deep within myself, I find there’s just not enough courage left in my reserve.

But still, I want.

But you don’t deserve that. You never have.

I want.

But you can’t have.

God, do I want.

Inhaling deeply, I hold his gaze and after several heavy seconds, I finally release my breath. My arm reaches forward, and as his hand wraps around mine, I revel in its warmth. It travels through my body and its heat settles in my cheeks. I narrow my eyes, but decide in this moment, I will give him all I can give. “I want to trust you.”

5 Stars

About L. B. Simmons

L.B. Simmons is a graduate of Texas A&M University and holds a degree in Biomedical Science.  She has been a practicing Chemist for the last 11 years.  She lives with her husband and three daughters in Texas and writes every chance she gets.

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