Review: Be Mine Forever by Kennedy Ryan

Review: Be Mine Forever by Kennedy RyanBe Mine Forever by Kennedy Ryan
Series: The Bennetts #3
Published by Grand Central Publishing Publication Date: February 3rd 2015
Genres: Contemporary, Friends to Lovers, Romance
Pages: 368
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Synopsis

Synopsis

Can a secret crush . . .

Jo Walsh has loved Cameron Mitchell for as long as she can remember. Whether front and center in her life or on the periphery, the tall, brooding artist has made his presence seductively and irresistibly known. But whenever they start to get close, Cam pulls away. Jo's tired of keeping her feelings in a box Cam is afraid to open. If he wants her, he'll have to prove it. And if he doesn't, Jo will need to know the real reason why . . .. . .

become the love of a lifetime?

How do you walk away from your soul mate? Cam wishes he knew. No matter how far he runs from Jo, he can't resist looking back at the silver eyes that seem to see right through him. But as well as Jo thinks she understands Cam, the dark truth about his past is something she shouldn't have to handle. Cam's sure that setting Jo free is the right thing to do. Too bad his heart has other ideas . . .

I received this book for free from in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

Review

“All those times you wondered if I might care, I did.  All the times you thought you imagined I wanted you, I wanted you.  And all those times you wondered if I might feel the same way, well, I do.”

Doesn’t that quote just make you want to jump into the book that holds it?  I definitely felt that way too! I was so excited to be given the opportunity to read Be Mine Forever.  The synopsis of the storyline was very appealing to me and piqued my interest.  Kennedy Ryan wrote a story that was breathtaking.  Jo and Cam’s romance was beautiful and timeless.

“He’d domesticated himself to fit in, but he had always known a full-grown beast lurked beneath the surface.”

We get our first glimpse of Cameron Mitchell in Be Mine Forever in an interview. He is being questioned about his roots and upbringing, and his journey in the art world. But the interview goes from uncomfortable, to intolerant to loathsome, and brings an abrupt ending. Needing to vent his frustration, Cam calls Walsh, his one-time best friend who is now married to his ex-wife, Kerris. During their conversation they discuss Jo Walsh, and we get the first hint at a weak spot in Cam’s armor. He is a torn man. Wanting to care for his friend and ex-love, but needing to protect himself. As if fate is playing a cruel joke on him, he finds himself having to come to the rescue for Walsh and Kerris at a detrimental time. In a pinch, he calls the one person who may complicate his life in ways he can’t imagine, his saving grace, Jo Walsh. Their attraction is palpable. We can feel it as they reacquaint themselves with one another. They have both dug holes to China to bury their secret desires for one another. But, even those holes can’t hide them from what is to come.

“I’ve lived with my feelings all my…feelings…all my life. I’ll be fine.”

Cam is in the midst of some big career decisions, and although he is a well-known and sought after artist decides to turn to where his affections are for his new art showing. We see him embrace his devotions in the same manner that we watch him discard others like yesterday’s trash, full-on, with extreme passion. Our first hint into Cam’s unfortunate past comes in the form of a nightmare that allows us to see beyond just a little boy who grew up poor. His dream gives us a direct insight into the grief and violence he has suffered. Because of this, he has kept particular people, especially Jo, at arm’s length, feeling as though his earlier years tainted him and made it impossible for him to be worthy of love by others.

“I would have done anything for you. I have done anything for you. I wanted you to be my first date.  My first kiss.  My first lover,  And you could have been.”

Moving forward, Jo makes the decision to let go of her infatuation with Cam and live in reality, which involves dates and paying attention to the male species. She wants to have the perfect date with the perfect guy. Except she wants it with Cam and he’s not HER perfect guy. HER perfect guy only wants to push her away. So, she is left empty in a perfect mess.

“He wanted to crawl into every hole, wanted to lick every crevice, wanted to claim every inch of this perfect body. To erase every trace of any man who had had the nerve to come before him.”

Now, we are starting to get somewhere!  In a moment of heated debate, Cam can no longer push Jo away. The dam breaks and the mighty Niagara surfaces. The moment we have been waiting for has arrived!  Cam and Jo go on their first real date. Things are going beautifully until an unexpected awkward moment sullies the waters a bit. But, there is clarity brought from that and a great victory gained for Jo and Cam. However, secrets from the past have a way of haunting us if not dealt with. Knowing this, Jo decides to unveil some things from her past.  In this moment we see that stable and steady Jo previously had and still has moments in her life which are anything but that. And finally we come face-to-face with Cam’s moment of truth, which leads to another and another. This in turn makes way for our couple to discover each other emotionally and physically.

“Let me hear you…that sound you’re making, that’s mine.  I want it.”

I knew this was coming but was totally unprepared for just how stimulating and devilish it would be.  The taking was wild, carnal, and hard. It was years of pent-up lust, obsession, admiration, and love. A volcanic explosion did not have as much reverberating heat as Cam and Jo in this moment.  The scene the next morning left me reeling…so uncomfortable!!  When I thought I knew what was coming, Kennedy Ryan threw me a spectacular curve ball and had me begging for more, and holy cow if I didn’t just combust, go up in flames, and leave behind a pile of ash. Listening as Cam painted Jo was one of the most sensual moments in book history. It was steamy and sexy.  And when he said, “My heart is in your hands”, the ashes that were left of me disintegrated. I loved that Cam was all in, and Jo was living her dream.

It was insightful seeing Cam in his old neighborhood doing what got him started in art. His visitor made me feel very uneasy, and I glanced down at the book percentage to see if this might be a Kindle-throwing moment. Unfortunately, I was right.  I knew his past was a trigger, but didn’t guess at the magnitude of my thoughts. I felt absolutely shattered for both him and Jo. My mind was whirling. It was like being in one of those nightmares when you’re at the top of a high-rise building looking out over the sights, then you suddenly fall, and just keep falling and falling. I couldn’t stop the sadness that enveloped me as both Cam and Jo had to find their way through hell to hopefully make it back to heaven, or at least Earth. I could not have asked for a better ending to this story.  Part of a lifetime spent craving and denying the greatest love, and I was allowed to witness the grand transformation and resolution.

There were numerous moments throughout Be Mine Forever that took my breath away.   When Cam relived his childhood in his nightmares I wanted to pick up the little boy, hold him, and make his world a better place. I loved Jo!  Every little girl has her first crush and hurt. She had a lifelong one, and I felt it every time she thought of and spoke to Cam.  Their second date at the roller skating rink was cathartic for me. I reminisced to a time when I was the only girl who didn’t know how to skate on the rink and took numerous spills, and my connection with Jo was further strengthened in the “I never learned how to skate” sisterhood.   Their nighttime adventure with fireflies displayed a beautiful light in darkness symbolism, foreshadowing what was to come.   And, of course, allowing for our favorite couple to have a beyond happy ending to their story made me want to start the book over and relive every moment.

A quote from Be Mine Forever that I felt while reading this book…

“I will remember this moment for the rest of my life.”

5 Stars

About Kennedy Ryan

I just can't write about myself in the third person for one more bio! I'm a wife, a mom, a writer, an advocate for families with autism. That's me in a nutshell. Crack the nut, and you'll find a Southern girl who loves pizza and Diet Coke, and wishes she got to watch a lot more television. You can usually catch me up too late, on social media too much, or FINALLY putting a dent in my ever-growing to be read list!

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